I am so tired of taking care of it all. The bills, the house, the car and everything else. Yes, I only work 24 hours a week but I get paid for 48. That’s how it works. Weekend option is what it is called.
I go to work knowing that I have the power to heal or harm. What a great burden that is in and of itself.
Then I have a little boy to take care of.
I know it doesn’t seem that much but it builds up.
It builds up to a point that I just want someone to take over. I want someone to hold me and tell me it will all be OK.
Someone to shoulder the responsibility just once, besides me.
Is the situation I am in my fault? probably.
Do I regret trying to be “nice”, “sweet”, “understanding”?..yes, till I take my last breath.
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