Please excuse me if I ramble but I have a lot on my mind.
This morning I found out that a family friend was given 6 months by her oncologist.
Not too long ago I had a best friend diagnosed with Breast Cancer. She has a son in Elementary school. She has finished her chemo and radiation and her hair is finally growing back. We call it her mark of courage.
I lost my best friend years ago due to pneumonia, she was a quadraplegic. When she died her daughter was about 5 years old.
I lost my parents several years ago..my mom first then my dad. My Mom never saw my beautiful son. I like to think she would have been proud.
My son would ride his scooter over to my dad’s Hospice bed and spoon feed him scrambled eggs. “Papa Fries” is what he called him. I like to think my Dad knew who he was.
Dr. Mays, one of the best Cardiologists I have ever had the pleasure of working with, died along with his young son in a Motor Vehicle Accident. His wife and young daughter in the back seat of the Land Rover survived.
And there are more..
What about the prayers that go unanswered? The ones that you get down on your knees and beg for.
What about the one you fall for..and pray for..but just doesn’t see how much you care or just can’t accept it?
What about when you pray to some how undo what you have said in the heat of the moment when you just can’t find the words yourself?
What about the times you lay in bed alone at night and pray for peace of heart and it never comes?
What about the time that you close your eyes and take a deep breath and pray that the one you love feels you with them and knows you care?
That’s my question..What about all the what if’s?
Where are you God when I need you?
smarterwiser 