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BART

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BART

BART

This is BART, he is one of four rescue animals that are part of my family. He knows his name, he comes when he is called, he is a consumate chatterbox, he purrs with ease, he loves going outside for walks, but most of all I think he knows he is loved!

My Plan for the next few posts..Human Trafficking

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Did you know that slavery is alive and well in our County? I guarantee you that it exists in your state, your county and your city. It is called Human Trafficking and it is a billion dollar industry. The majority of victims are runaway teens looking for a promise of love and being part of a family. The trafficker lurs them in with promises of love, glamour and wealth..and then they are kidnapped, drugged and gang raped. Check the statistics yourself..http://www.polarisproject.org/

Day #3-Day #4..That was fun!

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I am sitting here killing time on my day off. I have three 12 hour shifts coming up and I think I deserve some downtime before then. Oh, you ask what do I do in that time? I love to write.

Hope you had the chance to read the letter of recommendation for friendship in my previous post, it was fun to write. As I was trying to think of what I wanted to post next, I popped over to another blog and read some hilarious jokes about “special” people from Alabama..fuel for the fire baby..what follows is the addendum to a personnel policy/procedure handbook just for those “special people”.

PERSONNEL POLICY/PROCEDURE HANDBOOK

Please familiarize yourself with the information contained in this handbook, your professioanlism is essential to the continuing growth of the “company”. (read the handbook, dictionaries [books with the meaning of words and phrases] are supplied on a first come first serve basis). Pending back order at the time of this publication.

  • Camouflage attire of any type, steel toe boots, coon skin caps, tee shirts with iron on logos, and sleevless shirts with the phrase “Get Er Done” are absolutely prohibited.
  • We ask that you do not carry your tobacco products sticking out of the front top left hand pocket of your approved “company” shirt.
  • 4 legged creatures of any type I.E. hound dogs, rabbits, squirrels, possum etc. are expressly prohibited at “company” picnics.
  • Please do not park your jacked up Chevy 4×4 with the ‘superswampers’ in the visitor parking areas.
  • The employee health nurse is prohibited from applying any type of ‘salve’, ointment, paste or any other non FDA approved ‘remedy’ to any type of workplace injury including papercuts, stapler puncture wounds and handheld pencil sharpener abrasions [this policy is stricly enforced].
  • We ask that you refrain from using phrases such as: Bowed Up, Cattywampus, Darn Tootin’, Fit to be Tied, Nearbout, No’Count, Yonder and Sho’Nuff.
  • Staff meetings are closed to employees only. Please do not bring Granny, Unckle Jed, Ant Petunia, Cu’sin Earl or any other non-employee to any function that has the word “meeting” in it.
  • The policy for sick days is strickly enforced. You may not use sick time to take days off for hunting, fishing, frog-gigging, Noodling or any other outdoor sporting event.

WELCOME TO THE “COMPANY”..We take great pride in being the premier sponsor for the greater Birmingham and Dothan  Area “Special People Olympics”.

I have a craving for noodles!

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My two very dearest friends have fueled the creative fire..just by simple remarks.. key words proper King’s English and Noodles for Lunch..here we go!

syn·tax  audio  (sntks) KEY
NOUN:

    1. The study of the rules whereby words or other elements of sentence structure are combined to form grammatical sentences.
    2. A publication, such as a book, that presents such rules.
    3. The pattern of formation of sentences or phrases in a language.
    4. Such a pattern in a particular sentence or discourse.
  2. Computer Science The rules governing the formation of statements in a programming language.
  3. A systematic, orderly arrangement.
ETYMOLOGY: French syntaxe, from Late Latin syntaxis, from Greek suntaxis, from suntassein, to put in order : sun-, syn- + tassein, tag-, to arrange
 
Syntax is the basis , athough an outdated grammatical theory, the proper structure for putting words together as in proper King’s English.
“noodles”..well that remains to be seen and written!  A narrow stip of dried dough..
 
Put those together and you get a somewhat modern defintion of beginning and end.
 
A noodle may be cut at any point..the beginning, middle or end. Make sure that you cut yours at just the right spot..the beginning must be at the precise point of creating a mouthwatering tease. The end must reflect the accumulation of all your desires come to pass!
 
 
 
 
 

Being A Mother

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This is probably going to be TMI. I am giving you fair warning in advance. You may choose to read this or not, but if I do not let it go it is going to be my undoing.

Yes, I am full of drama (you have figured that out by now). You never know what is about to come out of my mouth (lack of a filter as I get older) but this is without a doubt the greatest burden I carry. I have to at least get this out. I am very passionate about a few things in my life, as you know. As I have said over and over “you only have one go around and that’s it”

What is the most important thing you will ever do in your life?

For me it was and always will be giving birth to another human being and to know that you are their sole protector..you are it, it all falls on you and you either embrace it or let it go. As far as I am concerned if you let it go then you have no right to exist and you sure as hell have no right to receive such a blessing. I prayed every night that I would do the right thing and I would be able to live up to such high expectations.

He was due on Thanksgiving day 2004. It was a high risk pregnancy, I was asked, because of my age, if I wanted the testing for Downs syndrome. You are going to poke a needle in my belly where my baby is and take the risk of something happening just so I can decide if I want to go full term or abort if it is a Downs baby? No way, that is not my decision. God decided this before I ever came along so we will let him finish it the way he sees fit!

November the 8th, I went for another ultrasound..”You are going to have this baby tomorrow first thing in the morning”. WTF? My son had the umbilical cord wrapped around his neck twice (double nuchal cord) for awhile. I was oblivious..Dr. Goggin’s and my ex decided not to tell me because it would be too much on me. The amniotic fluid was very low. Joshua was coming tomorrow, ready or not!

November the 9th, my son was born. C-section with an epidural and all the drama. My blood pressure bottomed out, I felt like I couldn’t breathe..The OR team was awesome! I remember shaking to the point that I thought I was going to fall off the table..they had it so under control!

I was scared to death, lying on the OR table, a nurse hands me this newborn wrapped up and with a little cap on. MY SON! a tiny little human being..my life would and never will be the same. I actually had a son!

The days to follow are somewhat of a blur..Gerry left for Iraq when he was a week old, I can remember being so tired, laying on the sofa one day while Sandy helped me with Joshua..I imagined seeing cats flying in the air in front of me..I was exhausted..

Eventually things got better and I got some rest thanks to my sister and wonderful friends.

I tried to nurse but he just wouldn’t latch on,I felt like a failure. I pumped until I thought my breast would fly off and go shooting across the dining room (yep, part of the TMI I told you about). I was eventually able to give him the colostrum he needed for the antibodies and then the bottles worked their magic..He fed so well and was a chubby little guy.

I look back now and think “what a miracle”.

Today I feel such a TREMENDOUS sense of guilt..I say he is my World..then why am I not willing to sacrifice myself in an unhealthy and unhappy marriage in order to give him the sense of security that he so deserves?

I think the answer is that I am his protector. I am his MOTHER. It is my responsibility to see that he is taken care of. It is my responsibility as a MOTHER to see that my son is given every chance to flourish.

But I find myself repeating this over and over..I cannot do my duty as a MOTHER if I am not whole..he deserves that at the very least.

I pray that this is true and I am not ruining my son in spite of my own selfishness..

It seems as though in today’s society there are so many children taken for granted, so many left to fend for themselves..emotionally and financially.

My son will not be one of those!

Please God let him understand that I have to do this..I am going to do this..but most of all let him understand that I love him more than life itself. I will protect him, I will always take care of him..

I Will Not

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    I am impatient, I am not perfect. I suspect I am not promised a tomorrow. I will forgive myself.

    For the wind passeth over it, and it is gone; and the place thereof shall know it no more. [Psalm 103:13-17]

     I am not the perfect woman; I have a lot to desire but I am enough. I have one life to live and this is it..no time to waste, not even one second.

    I will not intrude.

    I will not beg.

    I will not ask a second time.

    I will not ask for what I wouldn’t be willing to do myself.

    I will not pretend to understand.

    I will not be someone I am not.

    I will not waste your time.

    I will not be second best.

    I will not be an option.

    I will not be a lot of things; but I will be me and eventually I will be someone’s priority.