One Step at a Time

I’ve spent some time going back and reading some of my posts. Most are very passionate and some a little humorous. But I realize this morning what’s missing. The obvious, the simple.

Nobody said life would be easy. That’s an understatement. I guess there are times like now, that you have to strip yourself bare and start over. In doing this you, I suppose, have no choice but to begin with the most elementary of all concepts.. Put one foot in front of the other.

My legs are wobbly, my footing precarious to say the least but here goes.. One step at a time.

A note to those who care about me, I’m counting on your help should I stumble and fall.

The ones who have been there and extended a hand to help me up in the past know who they are. The ones who helped knock me down a time or two, well you also know who you are. And so do I…

An observation

It is with clear resolve that I say Human Beings, without a doubt, have the ability to be the cruelest of all living creatures.

Sadly enough many times by choice, not by necessity.

A Different Perspective

Problems of Priveledge: the truck breaks down, you get called into work, the clothes dryer breaks…what if these inconveniences were not so?

You have no vehicle, you have no job and you sure as hell don’t have a clothes dryer.

When something goes wrong tweak your perspective just a little and see what happens..

It really is that simple IF you keep practicing how you not only look at things but how you really SEE them.

Learning To Live

Being grateful today is actually pretty simple. It’s hot as hell, shit happens and surprisingly the world doesn’t revolve around me.. But damn..thank you God for another day!!

I Am A Survivor

I have a chronic disease. According to the latest statistics I have a 36% chance of a successful recovery within the first year.

Screw that! I am a fighter and I have a name and I am damn sure not a statistic on the wall!

Take that!! And then some…

SERENITY

God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, and Wisdom to know the difference.

To Thine Own Self Be True

One day at a time…

SMARTERWISER

What REALLY pisses me off? Giving up the fight!

We all have our stories. Please try to stay with me, it may get complicated.

There are times we feel like we are on top of the world and there are times we feel like all is lost.  Everyone, yes every single one has a story. Question? how did you get through? Better yet, how do you plan to get through??

As girls call it “retail therapy? or others;  a week-long escape to Europe?  A simple weekend off? A trip to Panera bread? Answer is “whatever works for you in the now”.

But what if now only gets you through the next 24 hours? Then what, you still have countless to go. My guess is until you face the real problem no quick fix will suffice.

If you are truly unselfish you will reach out, ego aside, and ask for help. Surprisingly enough it most likely will be there. And  if it’s not then it is a gift to  yourself, maybe the first of a lifetime, to find it yourself. God makes no mistakes, you are worth the fight!

Until you look deep inside and recognize the humility of being only human., maybe then will you understand that you are truly worth it.

I will say it again, you are not a mistake..you are exactly and precisely who and what you were meant to be.

You will find that grace..a saving grace. most likely right before your eyes and you didn’t even know it!!

Only The Strong Survive

Whoever “coined” the term “only the strong survive” had it dead wrong..

It’s those of us that struggle every second of every hour of every day that are the true survivors..

Being weak is not an option, being strong is an ideal, but being just good enough gets you through the day and that’s good enough for me…at least for now.

“The Golden Heart”

Today is Mother’s day, a day of remembrance for me. Of course I had to work , Sundays in the ED… well it usually takes the wind out of your sails.

Not today.

I wore a Gold Heart Shaped Locket with a pinch of my Mother’s cremations sealed eternally inside.

I had a great day, I worked with the best of the best and then some. I even got to leave early because things were just that “good”.

Somehow I think the “Golden Heart” had a little something to do with that.. And I am very grateful…

Batter Up!

I have done a lot of thinking lately. As I watched my son play Little League baseball it hit me..Life is much like the game..

The line up is set..they call batter up and it’s you! A few practice swings..while the catcher “plays catch” with the pitcher.

You’re up to bat, like it or not, it’s your turn.

Everyone is hollering..”you’ve got this”, “make it yours”, “line drive”, “over the fence”, “keep your eye on  the ball”..

You walk up to the plate knowing full well you are going to have to swing at a pitch. A strike, a ball, whatever. You have to swing at least once!

If it is just right..you dig in, hold the bat just off your shoulder ..praying for a level swing.

The first pitch..it’s out of the box..you step back.”good eye” they yell.

Second pitch..you swing too low..a strike..

Another pitch..you have him now. You think you  know how it’s coming. You are more determined than ever to make contact..just get a piece of it..

He pitches a good ball, you swing you’re level best, it doesn’t connect…too high, too low, you dipped on the swing..it doesn’t matter at this point..

You’re out!

But only until you are on deck again..You have learned from your mistakes and this time it WILL be over the fence.. You will run Home and slide for the hell of it!